Small Steps

May 8 2016

I started getting other ideas in my head. If I got to know Nevin enough, maybe I'd be able to invite her over to my place sometime.

There are days where it's easy to feel discouraged, especially when things feel overwhelming. Sometimes, a person needs to take a step back, prioritize things, or do the smaller or easier things first.

Things become slightly more bearable for my mom when she started socializing with other people - though it also became more interesting in terms of the reaction with my dad.

My mom never told me how my dad reacted, though I'm quite sure it's in her diary. She's hinted that he got a surprise - but I haven't gotten to that part of the diary yet.

Here's hoping to a better future,

Morven.

Disappointment

May 1 2016

I'll admit; I was disppointed, but I should have expected it. That was how Harland operated.

This is how I felt during my childhood with my dad. But I learnt to block it out. And now, quite a few years later, he wants to have contact. There's questions that I still want to ask him.

And I'm quite sure that Elian wants answers to the same questions. But chances are, they probably aren't ever going to get answered. Our dad may feel guilty now, but I highly doubt he feels guilty enough.

Here's hoping to a better future,

Morven.